Wednesday, June 24, 2020

Zaira - Dawning, Rose, Pilgrim





Zaira.......the hope and shine in our lives is born on 18th of June 2020. She has entered in our lives 9 months ago but her cries and creams can be heard now.

It was expected to be a baby girl, we also knew the exact date on which she was supposed to arrive in this colorful world. But suddenly two days earlier the date she became excited in the womb and her aunty doctor suggested to operate and take her out. I heard that alarming phone call in the morning and rushed to Hyderabad so that I can be with my sister in her difficult times of labor/scissor pain. When I was still on my way, I received in our family whatsapp group Zaira's first picture with her eyes fully opened. I felt so emotional and my eyes were wet. I did not know why I was being so much emotional and crying but I was extremely happy that the baby and mother both were stable. It was such a blessed moment for all of us that she came to make her mother complete, a complete woman (thinking is a woman with no babies incomplete?). Her mother and father have suffered so much, they were craving to become parents for 6 long years. Their desire to have just one baby was fulfilled. After two miscarriages and one ectopic, my sister was able to have one normal pregnancy (It was not normal though, she had to give herself injections in the tummy so that the baby can easily grow inside)

I reached hospital and she came to my lap, her father asked me to suggest a name, I suggested "Zaira". 

Zaira..It is the Italian form of "Zaïre", a name used by Voltaire for the heroine of his 1732 play, Zaïre. Zaira means "dawning" in Italian, "rose" in Arabic, "pilgrim" in Persian, "princess" in eastern languages, "Blooming flower" in English.

For us she is all above, she is the hope of dawning, she looks like a rose, which has just bloom: soft, gentle, she is a pilgrim towards a sacred journey of parenthood. She has completed us instead.


I am spending more time with her. My mother massages her with oil, trying to make her nose thin, forehead a bit flat, a proper chin, and Zaira never mind these all things. Mostly children cry a lot, but Zaira wants to be perfect as her Nani Maa wants.



So my Zaira, my princess is here...

Pleasing and gentle like a blooming flower...

Your smile carries millions of hopes...

Your cry mostly knot our breaths...

Your black, wide eyes, and a thick, flabby nose...

Sticky fingers, tangled hair, small toes....

Your mom, seems scared of taking you in her hands..

Your father notches to hold...

This is a new treasure for both of them...

Their life is expanding...

Their schedule will be ruined..

Because you are so small to handle your needs...

You will see the world now with your parent's eyes...

You will catch the love and care from everyone around...

May you become a flourishing tree...

May you have wonderful future and meticulous things....

You have created a wonder and excitement in our beings....

Thank you Zaira for being born in our reign.



Wednesday, June 17, 2020

Sukooon

He rangan ji dunya, khushi san bharyal aa
Har koe inje rang me budal aa
Safar chahe kedo bhi mushkil huje
Khulyal dil san thi weindo guzar aaa
Mohbat ji manzil sawen koh agte..
Magr inje rastan ji khushboo alag aa
Sukkon aahe qudrat jo tuhfo wado...
Mili wanje bgair mehnat, ehyo theindo kadehn aa...

The level of ignorance


People see the red and think it is alarming...
I see red as beautiful, energatic bride is coming.....
People say green symbolizes nature...
I see green as a renewal of life and emotions.....
People mock the pink as belongs to girls only...
I say pink shows love and romance only...
People consider black to mourn....
I say black is the color of power and elegance...
People feel the brown is racial....
I feel the depth or earth’s crust in it....
People neglect grey's importance....
For me grey is the color of intelligence....
People consider white as color of peace...
It is purity and youth for me....
People always look yellow as the symbol of friendship....
I see it as the symbol of hope and sunshine.....
For me each color has a different meaning....
For me each meaning has its own importance...
For me the reality is what I perceive positive.....
For me people's opinion is just a piece of their personal choices...
I would go for what I believe....
Neither the people nor the symbol's would change it.

Thursday, June 11, 2020

Still I Rise By MAYA ANGELOU


You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
’Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
’Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.

Out of the huts of history’s shame
I rise
Up from a past that’s rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

Tuesday, June 9, 2020

Sun Lo To Inayet Hy by Parveen Shakir

Sun Lo To Inayet Hy

Poet: Parveen Shakir


Ek Shakhs Ko Deakha Tha Taron Ki Tarhan Humne
Ek Shaks Ko Chaha Tha
Apno Ki Tarhan Humne
Ek Shaks Ko Samjha Tha Phoolon Ki Tarhan Humne
Wo Shaks Qayamat Tha Kya Us ki Karen Baten
Din Us Ke Liye Paida Aor Us ki Hi Thi Raten
Kab Milta Kisi Sy Tha Humse Thi Mulaqaten
Rang Us ka Shahabi Tha 
Zulfon Men Thi Mehkaren 
Aankhen Thi K Jadoo tha
Palken Thi K Talwaren 
Dushman Bi Agar Dekhen 
So Jan Sy Dil Haren
Kuch Tum Sy Wo Milta Tha
Baton Men Shahabat Thi
Ha Tum Sa Hi Lagta Tha
Shokhi Men Shararat Men
Lagta Bi Tum hi Sa Tha
Dastur-E-Mohabt Men
Wo Shaks Hamen ek Din Apno Ki Tarhan Bhoolla
Taron Ki Tarhan Doobba Phoolon Ki Tarhan Tootta
Phir Hath Na Aaya Wo Humne Bohat Dhoondha
Tum Kis Liye Chonky Ho
Kab Zikar Tumhara Hy?
Kab Tum Sy Takaza Hy?
Kab Tum Sy Shikayat Hy?
Ik Taza Hikayat Hy Sun Lo To Inayat Hy
Ek Shaks Ko Cha'ha tha apno Ki Tarhan Humne
Ek Taza Hikayat Hai Sun Lo To
Inayat Hy!!!

کو بہ کو پھیل گئی بات شناسائی کی

کو بہ کو پھیل گئی بات شناسائی کی

Poet: Parveen Shakir

کو بہ کو پھیل گئی بات شناسائی کی
اس نے خوشبو کی طرح میری پذیرائی کی

کیسے کہہ دوں کہ مجھے چھوڑ دیا ہے اس نے
بات تو سچ ہے مگر بات ہے رسوائی کی

وہ کہیں بھی گیا لوٹا تو مرے پاس آیا
بس یہی بات ہے اچھی مرے ہرجائی کی

تیرا پہلو ترے دل کی طرح آباد رہے
تجھ پہ گزرے نہ قیامت شب تنہائی کی

اس نے جلتی ہوئی پیشانی پہ جب ہاتھ رکھا
روح تک آ گئی تاثیر مسیحائی کی

اب بھی برسات کی راتوں میں بدن ٹوٹتا ہے
جاگ اٹھتی ہیں عجب خواہشیں انگڑائی کی

Monday, June 8, 2020


ڪجھ ڏينهن اڳ سفر جي دوران هڪ گانو ٻڌي رهي هيم، استاد بخاري جي شائري آهي. ان شائري ۾ انسان جي فطرت تي غور ٿيل آهي. 
شائري آهي: 
پيار درياه آه، درياه به لٽجي ٿو وڃي
نيٺ انسان آه، انسان به مٽجي ٿو وڃي

هسن آه باز مگر عشق وڏي آفت آه
پر ٻڌو ٿم ته ڪڏهن باز به جھٽجي ٿو وڃي

ها منڃان ٿو ته سڄڻ سڀني وصف سون آهي
پر غزب آه جو سچوسون به ڪٽجي ٿو وڃي

باز بندوڪ شڪاري جي ڇُٽي ٿي پوئتي
جو ڦٽي ٿو ته پاڻ به ڦٽجي ٿو وڃي

چنڊ هٽندي ئي وڏي وير هٽي ويندي آه
گھور گھٽجي ٿي ته استاد به گھٽجي ٿو وڃي
.نيٺ انسان آه، انسان به مٽجي ٿو وڃي،

مان ٿورو بيچين ٿي ويم ته ڇا هر انسان اهڙي حالات مان گزرندو آهي؟ پهرين جيڪا ڳالهه يا شيءَ پسند هوندي اٿس اها ڪجھ وقت کان پوءِ ناگوار لڳندي آهي؟ اسان جي لاءِ سون، باز، هسن يا انسان، پنهنجي اهميت وڃائي ويهندو آهي. پر ان سڀ ۾ سامهون واري ماڻهو جو ڪهڙو ڏوهه جيڪو توهان سان بي انتها محبت ڪري ٿو؟ شايد ان جي دل ۾ توهان جو متبادل نه ٿو اچي سگھي، يا شايد اهو انسان انهن چند انسانن ما هجي جيڪي محبت جي آخري انتها تائين وڃي ڄاڻندا آهن.
انسان جي زندگي ۾ هر شئ يا ماڻهو لاءِ هم مخصوص وقت وقرر ٿيل هوندو آهي ۽ ان مقرر وقت کان پوءِ اهو ماڻهو دل تان لهي ويندو آهي، شايد اسان ان کي پيار ختم ٿي وڃڻ  چوندا هجون.

اسان سڀ اهڙي ڪشمڪش مان گزريا آهيون، هڪ سان واستا ۽ رشتا وڌائي پوءِ ڪو به بهانو ٺاهي انهن کي ڇڏي ڏيندا آهيون ڇو ته اسان جي ترجيح وقت سان گڏ مٽجندي رهي ٿي. مان پوءِ اهيو سوچي وڌيڪ پريشان ٿيڻ لڳم ته جڏهن اسان سڀ اهڙي حالات کي مشڪل سان منهن ڏئي نڪري ايندا آهيون ته پوءِ ٻين کي اهڙي حالات ۾ ڇو وجھندا آهيون؟ جڏهن ته اسان کي خبر به آهي ته هي الاهي مشڪل سفر هوندو آهي. اسان پاڻ ان کي جھيلي ٻين کي ڪيئن جھوڪي ايندا آهيون؟
 هر انسان ڪنهن ٻئي انسان جي خوشي يا غم جو سبب هوندو آهي ۽ ان سلسلي کي برقرار رکندي اسان پنهنجي پيارن کي تڪليفن ۾ جھوڪي وجھندا آهيون. شايد اهيو قدرتي عمل آهي.

 خير استاد بخاري جي احساسن کي سمجھندي انجي شائري کي پڙهڻ ۽ سمجھڻ جي سفر تي نڪتي آهيان. ڪجھ اهيو به احساس آهي ته شايد مان به ڪيترن جي تڪليف جو بائث ٿي هوندم، اڳتي موقعو مليو ته پنهنجي غلطين کي سڌو ڪرڻ جي ڪوشش به ڪندم.