Finding Self......

Being the only female from the family to take out steps from home for education and career had already put so much responsibilities and limitations on me....

Being tied in the unwanted knot was more hurtful....

Took decisions that made the family doubt on me and my intentions...

Followed my dreams of being independent and clever enough to not rely on any person...

I failed, I tried again but I never left the path....

I do not know how this courage took place in my heart...

But this made me the strongest person...

In last few days, I faced a cruel side of life, more cruel than before...

No-body knows what I am suffering from...

Family, friends, even the soul mates are un-aware...

This time is really crucial for me to know myslef..

I am discovering that, there are times when you alone will be walking and no-body will be able to give you company...

There are times when your parents, siblings, and the loved ones will not know your inner feelings, the feelings in the depths of despair...

There are times when you will be crying alone but you will not need anyone anymore....

I am finding my various sides, one side is so much strong that hides the despair in smile,,,the other side is so weak that cry’s out loud lonely....there is one side that does not want to move on....there is one side that wants to forget everything.....there is one side that thinks the bravest decision is made now....there is one side that thinks the life is over now,,,,

In all these mixed feelings I am finding a new self....

I feel my few questions are being answered...

Nobody but myself is helping in it....